Why recovery is tricky…

These last 3 months have been a lot, and honestly... that's an understatement. Between starting a new job, being in person/office 40 hours a week after being mostly home for nearly 2 years, being around brand new people who don't know me or my story, and going through all of it without being able to go to therapy, it's just been a lot to take on. I've certainly dipped into "bad" behaviors and then gotten mad at myself for it. I've basically been on the ferris wheel of self-hate for the last 3 months and it's finally time to get off the ride.