I tweeted this a year ago. I've already talked a little bit in my last post about how things can change in the blink of an eye... how all it takes is for 1 person to say "hey I got you," but I wanted to talk about it a little more.

**Trigger warning: suicide** The first time I took a handful of pills was August '98. I was at camp and we were all getting ready for the end of summer dance. I had been talking to a friend on the swings and something in my brain said, "You should go take some pills," and I did. I'll never know the real reason behind why I did it. Maybe I was curious, maybe I really wanted to die. So many things have happened since that night that it's hard to remember.